Saturday, May 27, 2006
just popped round to read some blogs by the juniors and well, i have some advice for the juniors...
yes, studying's impt and yeah, you shld worry abt not doing well but is life really determined by grades? is your value as a person measured by how well you do academically? maybe sometimes, just sometimes, we need to take a step back & re-evaluate what we want in life to put things in their perspective?
and don't ever lose hope, you all came into nj with an aggregate better than mine - i only scored 10 pts? it might seem overwhelming to you with the heavy wrkload but take the time to adjust. for according to Ralph Waldo Emerson, "If I have lost confidence in myself, I have the universe against me."
for those of us who value relationships, jc seems so scary 'cos you're suddenly separated by the pple who you've grown up with [4 yrs, 10 yrs?] and yes, you're worried tt those long-dist relationships [is the contxt this is being used in even correct?] but take control of the situation instead of just worrying abt the possibility of you growing apart! organise those get-togethers, jun is busy but make time for those you cherish for 'If you love something, it'll never be any trouble and you always have time.'
[incidentally, there was this article on the newspaper today abt this ij [my alma mater] girl who was organising a 1966 reunion. it's like 40 yrs ago & 2 pple have passed away... it seems so poignant tt after so many yrs, they still keep in touch?! can we make the effort to do the same for the pple we love, can we still keep those friendships burning strong?] i believe tt our friendships are surely worth the test of time!
then there are so many of you who have blogged abt not being able to play well, being worried/stressed when i mention/scold you/your playing. i can only say tt i'm sorry tt i can't put things in a nicer way; thank goodness for joyce who's such a sensitive, compassionate & diplomatic person! everyone, don't worry, we're gg to do it, we're gg to make it; we're gg to ace it. yes, ecelectic is gg to be a success!
everyone just needs to relax, don't think of getting the timing right, getting the techniques right; rather, we need to listen with our heart and when we do, everything will fall into place. with mr dzul as our admiral, the teachers as our captains, the exco as the commanders & you all as the lieutenants, we're abt to embark on the exciting voyage into un-charterted waters. as long as we have our hearts in the right places, we're never have anything to fear. as Homer said, "Nothing is too high for the daring of
mortals; we storm heaven itself in our folly."
'Everyone is indispensable in making a perfect melody. alone, we are nothing; together, we are everything.'
on the personal side, got my autograph book from yijun today and while reading i suddenly started crying. thanks to the wonderful angklungnites who asked if i was feeling ok. i assure you all tt i was.
the thing was i suddenly realised tt this is the last yr tt i'll be schling with yj. we've been pri sch mates, sec sch clsmates and now jc mates too! through it all, i've been in the same CCA with her for 10 yrs. [civics club, MMC, ARC, angklung] and we've shared so many things in common, shared so much of ourselves, shared too much of our lives tt i'm loathed for this to all end.
and it will, right this yr. what a frighteningly horrid thought to contemplate!
it was all too overwhelming for me and i just broke down. started by tearing while coming down from the angklung room and zl and zh left me to it. then it got worse when i saw yj & joyce and it suddenly seemed so imperative tt they know how much i really do love them.
cldn't help it; i bawled like a kid. but i'm not to let thess friendships dim with time [not if i can help it] so i'm gg to keep fighting to keep them alive!
*thanks for the lovely concern you all showed, thought you deserved an explanation.