Monday, August 04, 2008
The rehearsals today were....
Alright, let's forget about all the upsetting, unhappy and humiliating things that makes bile creep up our throat and cause us to all feel like retching out our dinner. Let's all just forget about it okay? Don't get affected by whatever they said my dear J1s. Forget about today. It's not worth our effort recalling. It's a waste of our precious memory space. Our brains are needed to contain other even more important memories.
I feel so useless you know?
How I'm unable to defend and stand up for this whole ensemble.
How I actually even overlooked a welfare of one particular member.
How I was unable to shield them from humiliation.
It hurts so much that such a united and great bunch of people are facing such idiocy in the college.
You have no idea how I felt when THAT teacher said that. I felt like punching her in the face. Don't worry, I won't be dedicating a whole flaming post to that teahcer. I won't want to run into any defamatory law suit. I'm still sane. I'm still coherent.
I want that person to apologise, for saying that to the bunch of people whom have made my life in nj so worthwhile and enjoyable; for saying all that to the special group of people with such uncanny wit and indisputable high intellectual ability. THAT person, has no idea how much this group of people have slogged and practiced for this performance. THEY have NO idea how important this is to us. THEY have NO idea, absolutely NO idea how much effort this group of people has put in, how serious they have been during every practice; how they would laugh it off even when they felt lethargic and tired; how they would say they're alright when it actually totally sucked.
THAT person has NO right to tell us anything. No right at all.
They have NO right to say that the music we play is noise. It's not noise, it's MUSIC- MUSIC damn it. Music that brings our hairs standing on ends! Do you have something wrong with your ears? I hope you would go to the doctor to get those ear drums cleaned up.
I'm so, so apologetic. I'm so sorry for everything ensemble. Everything you guys have faced today.
When we went to the porch to practice and did swaying movements for the very first time, you have no idea how 'high' I felt. I was just running on adrenaline. I felt like everything was so right- how we're all just here together, for each other, side by side, in the dark of the night, making music with our instruments and just swaying in tandem with the leaves rustling in the wind, without a care of the world.
I just want to say how proud I am of all of you. That no matter what others say, I'll always be proud of all of you. That we'll always be there for each other. (:
ENSEMBLE! Let's hold our heads high and strut down that runway with confidence and assertion on the 8th of August. Let's shake with all our might, emotion,mettle and strength and make Singapore proud. Let's show them what we're made of and what we're all about!
LOVE YOU GUYS! (: